Of whitening lotion and being short

Term break is officially over and surprise, surprise, I am still in a holiday mood... The one-week break just passed by like that. I seemed to be doing a lot of stuff during that week, but I cannot remember what I did. Except for my emceeing stint for an event at MOS and the KTV sessions. Ha. Chitra reminded me that it is only 5 weeks till the end of lessons and about 7 weeks till the end of exams. Isn't that like fast? It seems like we have just started the new semester! Tons of readings to catch up and projects to complete. Ahhhhhhh! Check out the picture taken at the launch party of a youth portal held at MOS below. I look like a dwarf and feel like an ugly duckling beside Eunice Olsen. Goodness. And to think I was wearing heels. Can you imagine how it would look like if I had wore flats? I think the photographer would have a hard time fitting me into the picture. I realised that I am really very very tan too. Ah! Even Ronald Susilo is fairer than me! I am seriously thinking of using whitening lotion. If there are tanning saloons, why aren't there whitening saloons? I think they might earn quite a bit of money. Or maybe, I should just blame it on the dim lighting at the venue. Ha.

Too emotional or not?

Sometimes I wonder. Am I such a 'emotion-less' person? I hate to admit it but there are times when I hoped I could be a nicer person with a better temper. A better person that have the perfect knowledge on how to handle different situations. Sometimes I am just speechless as to how to react to certain things that people tell me. Most of the time, I think I reacted wrongly. You just know it. Especially when they cut the conversation short and there is this moment of slience. Or that look in their eye indicating that they expect you to say something more or is surprised at the response. I get that quite often. Emotionless? Maybe it is a wrong word. I can be very emotional. Just like what motivated me to write this. Just by reading the blog of a certain 'friend'. Sometimes I wished that I would not pore over certain issues for a prolong period of time. However, my heart will always do most of the thinking for me. That's bad isn't it? Even the slightest reminder of an incident will have me plunged into my 'semi-depression' mode. My brain is cluttered with funny thoughts, I do not know how to think or what to think. I am just sitting there - the incident replaying in my head. And me feeling reproachful for what I have done or not done. Thinking about how I could have otherwise handled the situation better and how it could have turned out otherwise. Just like now. Just because of one stupid blog entry I had read. What kind of feeling is this? I cannot even find the exact word to describe it. Whatever la. I think I need some brain tonic. I have problems concentrating in lectures these days. Scene: The lecturer had just talked about an important point and I began to write it down. Lecturer continues talking. I write down 5-6 words and forget what the lecturer had just said. Tried to recall but to no avail and..... missed the next few points the lecturer was saying. So many times, I had to turn and stared at my neighbours' notes. After a while, I am worried that they might get irritated. So I switch on my screen saver mode. Zonk out. What is happening to me? Be nice and send me Brands' Chicken Essence this coming Valentines' Day someone. I am slipping away... ...

Just Me and My Fish.

Search engines and keywords

The blog counter thingy is really fun. There is this function where you can check who read or a search has been generated for you blog. Not exactly your blog, but rather they search for certain key words, and they exist in your blog. Not making sense? Never mind. Just look at this table.

All Keywords

HITS         Keyword 2         bantermag (MSN) 1         zhang ziyi and michelle chong (Yahoo) 1         michelle chong (Yahoo) 1         www.rdasia (MSN) 1         zhang ziyi michelle chong interview (Yahoo) 1         bantermag (Yahoo) 1         serene koh career (Yahoo) 1         joanne peh ntu (Yahoo) 1         chun lian (MSN) 1         bantermag singapore (Yahoo) 1         chalet spritual reader (Yahoo) 1         nicole serene (MSN) 1         www.friends@rdasia.com.sg (Yahoo) 1         xinz blogspot (Yahoo) 1         20th Birthday inscriptions (MSN) 1         funny cake inscriptions (Yahoo) 1         qing yao movies (Yahoo) 1         birthday cake inscriptions (MSN) 1         "serene koh" (Yahoo)

See? People who search on Yahoo or MSN using these words had my blog address generated as part of their search results. This is due to the fact that I had these words written in my entries somewhere. Amazing what technology can do ya...